Hello Diary!
Today marks the beginning of 2009, which I can only hope will bring with it many changes for the better! I may sound pretty optimistic, but this actually stems from the worst New Year's celebration I've ever attended. I went to my friend Mary's house as me and my husband do every year, but i couldn't enjoy myself. After dinner, I spent 30 minutes washing my hands 15 times for exactly 2 minutes each time. I couldn't seem to shake the feeling that bacteria from the food, cutlery, or tables had transferred onto my body and had to sit uncomfortably even after washing my hands so many times, afraid to touch anything. I wished I could
Casting two lines down worn wooden steps
our shadows danced together stretching
the yards down the path to the giant tree-house
we made years ago. Many pale slivers
lodged under my peach fingertips as I sat,
and they were nearly invisible except for
a slight blush at each wounds entry.
I had cried until you finally coaxed
the slivers out gently with your saliva and
suction. But you accidentally swallowed them
and they coursed through your body and
somehow ended at your heel,
and they pushed your shadow from mine.
Last seen skipping in hot pursuit of quick white tail,
did you find what you were looking for, Alice?Ive seen a lot
in fact, I caught a glimpse or two of an
invisible cat
and a giant caterpillar
blowing silky smoke rings
in the blue expansive sky.
You might say Im mad
When I tell you about crying rivers of tears
enough to fill a two-storey home
but you see, I was
five
times
as
tall
at the time.
You might say Im mad,
but I must disagree
for you havent met the
mad-hatter,
whose loose chatter rings
like tossed word-salad.
He suffered a terrible fall
try
The rumbling train has lost its appeal.
Branded logos - hyundai and canadian tire -
turn the romantic distant wail into a scream.
A cry for help.
As the ground shakes,
it threatens,
promises,
to swallow wheeled cargo.
But we're all just human cargo,
shuffled to and fro.
Brought to you by Via Rail.
From one place to the other, we're riddled
with brand logos and buying,
buying.
The consumer's life is inescapable.
We ought to live indiscriminate lives
in indiscriminate tree-bark sheds - no,
no cardboard homes - no,
no refrigerator boxes.
We ought to wear skirts of real grass,
and shirts made of moss.
We ought not a lot.
"Perfect", He'd said.
He'd toiled in the clay for heavy hours,
moulding everything from nothing
with His bulbous, beautiful hands.
"He'll mate and propagate, one day", He'd said.
He grinned over His creation;
He breathed it life,
and He might have smiled as He said
"This is good",
or He might have laughed
as a maniac in a starless night,
as He simultaneously gave the form before him,
life and death.
Hello Diary!
Today marks the beginning of 2009, which I can only hope will bring with it many changes for the better! I may sound pretty optimistic, but this actually stems from the worst New Year's celebration I've ever attended. I went to my friend Mary's house as me and my husband do every year, but i couldn't enjoy myself. After dinner, I spent 30 minutes washing my hands 15 times for exactly 2 minutes each time. I couldn't seem to shake the feeling that bacteria from the food, cutlery, or tables had transferred onto my body and had to sit uncomfortably even after washing my hands so many times, afraid to touch anything. I wished I could
Casting two lines down worn wooden steps
our shadows danced together stretching
the yards down the path to the giant tree-house
we made years ago. Many pale slivers
lodged under my peach fingertips as I sat,
and they were nearly invisible except for
a slight blush at each wounds entry.
I had cried until you finally coaxed
the slivers out gently with your saliva and
suction. But you accidentally swallowed them
and they coursed through your body and
somehow ended at your heel,
and they pushed your shadow from mine.
Last seen skipping in hot pursuit of quick white tail,
did you find what you were looking for, Alice?Ive seen a lot
in fact, I caught a glimpse or two of an
invisible cat
and a giant caterpillar
blowing silky smoke rings
in the blue expansive sky.
You might say Im mad
When I tell you about crying rivers of tears
enough to fill a two-storey home
but you see, I was
five
times
as
tall
at the time.
You might say Im mad,
but I must disagree
for you havent met the
mad-hatter,
whose loose chatter rings
like tossed word-salad.
He suffered a terrible fall
try
The rumbling train has lost its appeal.
Branded logos - hyundai and canadian tire -
turn the romantic distant wail into a scream.
A cry for help.
As the ground shakes,
it threatens,
promises,
to swallow wheeled cargo.
But we're all just human cargo,
shuffled to and fro.
Brought to you by Via Rail.
From one place to the other, we're riddled
with brand logos and buying,
buying.
The consumer's life is inescapable.
We ought to live indiscriminate lives
in indiscriminate tree-bark sheds - no,
no cardboard homes - no,
no refrigerator boxes.
We ought to wear skirts of real grass,
and shirts made of moss.
We ought not a lot.
"Perfect", He'd said.
He'd toiled in the clay for heavy hours,
moulding everything from nothing
with His bulbous, beautiful hands.
"He'll mate and propagate, one day", He'd said.
He grinned over His creation;
He breathed it life,
and He might have smiled as He said
"This is good",
or He might have laughed
as a maniac in a starless night,
as He simultaneously gave the form before him,
life and death.
You might ask how it is that she feels the slithy lines of rain cascading from the other side of many window panes. You might also ask how the transparent reflection in that window reflects nothing at all, though she sits with limp arms and tired eyes directly in front of it. You might ask how she can sit there, with tired memories running in the refracted light of the glass like a film projected on a blank wall. It was raining yesterday too. It had rained every day since you left.
Why did you go? Was the happiness that enveloped you like a warm hug on a cold day too much to bear? Or, was it that you couldnt understand that it was love
Just mates, a game of pretend
Behind closed doors we're more then friends
Within an embrace we wished would never end
Laughing together as we fall to the floor
Kissing and playing to our hearts galore
Just fooling around although we want more
Your got breath tingling my lips
Your fingers dancing upon my hips
Our quiet giggles, as our clothes get ripped
But when the suns rays finally break
I know that you were my greatest mistake
"Perfect", He'd said.
He'd toiled in the clay for heavy hours,
moulding everything from nothing
with His bulbous, beautiful hands.
"He'll mate and propagate, one day", He'd said.
He grinned over His creation;
He breathed it life,
and He might have smiled as He said
"This is good",
or He might have laughed
as a maniac in a starless night,
as He simultaneously gave the form before him,
life and death.
Current Residence: Canada Favourite genre of music: Rock of all types :) MP3 player of choice: iPod Skin of choice: My own? Favourite cartoon character: Stewie from Family Guy Personal Quote: "He who overcomes others has force. He who overcomes himself is strong" -Tao Te Ching
Here, I'll make it easy.
Because of a recent writing project I've undertaken, I *need* to start writing with some semblance of seriousness again.
I'm moving to a new location for a fresh start (new beginnings, so to speak?).
If you care to join me, visit me at this new account:
http://bemused3.deviantart.com (username: bemused3)
I'm cleaning my slate. No more promising myself to write more... I just will if I really want to (and I do really want to!).
I haven't been given an article to write in a few months. I'm afraid my editor suddenly doesn't like my writing anymore. The more likely culprit is a budget cut from the school or something of the like, but still. I was having fun interviewing professors and writing about their research (and seeing it published has been nice too!).
I guess there's always essays and (very) short poems and stories.
Au revoir!
I haven't been around much at all lately. Hoping to start writing again sometime soon, but with my new(ish) job at a book store I'm spending most of my time reading voraciously all the latest and most popular novels.
REALLY excited to read "Still Alice" by Lisa Genova. It's a Heather's Pick at work and I generally have the same taste in books as her. I'm already very afraid of Alzheimer's Disease (especially of the early-onset variety) due to the tragic and horrifying truths I learned about it in my abnormal psychology course this past semester, but the book is supposed to be so beautifully written and such a beautiful story that I can't res